I can't help but cringe so much whenever I see old pictures of myself, I tell people I used to weigh 110kg... they would all be like oh wow really, but I don't think they could ever imagine how it would look like. I cant help but get teary because of how disgusting i looked and how I thought it was still OK. I would lie to myself and hibernate from the world, since I had no confidence with low self esteem etc..
This picture was just taken in 2008.. 2 and a half years ago.
I don't know whether i should be proud of myself or should I hate myself even more because I've stopped motivating myself and getting lazy again.. even thought I'm not as bad as before I am still over weight.
Motivation is so damn important.
This is a one man thing, its all up to you whether you want to loose the rolls or not, its how you control yourself, its how much effort you put in, its not easy. but its worth it.
All I hear now is all these people around me saying they're fat when they're stick thin just makes me sick, I'm sorry but its a fact. You DO NOT know how having a few rolls all over your body feels like, you DO NOT understand how a FAT person would feel. I still get all emotional when I hear the word 'fat', it kills every time I hear it.